And it's back to square single. Which is for the best anyway, as I have many plans for 2014, and after all I am getting older. Most people I talk to can't believe I'm 26. Maybe because I'm working full time in the service industry. But I prefer to think it's because I still have the shining face of a 21 year old. Or, more likely, the sense of humor and ambition of a 19 year old.
I'm finding it very hard to motivate myself to reach beyond my limits. To learn new things, to be creative, to exercise, etc. I feel like I have become complacent, in a very happy and social way, that is. I keep saying 'In 2014 I will do this' etc. But what is the difference between January 1 and December 1? Or 4, 17, 23? Days and weeks and months blend together and I can't believe that one year ago today I was preparing to leave Calgary forever. How things have changed! Yet how they've stayed the same...
Probably the best way to motivate myself to do something is to just do it, and not sit around pining about it. And so I will write when I don't feel like writing. I will be alone when I don't feel like being alone. I will smile when I feel like not smiling at all. Attitude follows actions, and if I don't actively appreciate the life I have then I am a fool. Every where I look in my amazing and snuggly apartment is evidence of beautiful moments and people that I've experienced. My heart is full of gratitude.
